Mon July 13 6:45 PM

No internet here, this sucks like crazy. Bought an amigurumi pattern book, this is gonna be awesome though! Hehe! OOOH and a new ring, it's pretty, supposedly real amethyst, but it was a yard sale, so no idea if it is. Maybe I'll take it down to Perry and ask, that's where I got my ears peirced the second and third time (The first time they healed over >< now I have double peircings, going for triples at some point)
Also had to get a new swimsuit, my one from last year didn't fit anymore. FUCK I'M FAT! >< ugh, but I did lose 6 lbs, just by switching to drinking water instead of soda. I feel better too. Just overall less blah. It's great. I mean, if I go out for food, I'll still get a soda sometimes, but normally I drink water now, and have stopped eating chocolate, except for once a month or so.

Not a bad vacation, though the resort kicked my parents out cuz they caught their dog. they havn't caught us yet. ^.^


Tues July 14 5:15 PM

Mama and I have devised a plan. I'm going to start making and selling clothing, for dogs! It's going to be awesome. AppleJak Originals, we have a lot of plans already. ^^ I have an order, that's what started this. it's going to be fantastic! *happy squee!*

Ahh thanks to cousin Eunice, we've been getting out and walking every day since we've been here, from one end of the boardwalk and back through town. it's great. I like it, I wish we had somewhere like that to walk back home. We only have the road...and it's boring.

Though it's rather overall damp on this side of the mountains, and there isnt much in the way of sunshine, nothing dries, it took two days for my swimsuit to dry! I put my pants outside to day, along with jak's and I dunno if they'll be anywhere near packable dry by the time we leave tomorrow! >< gah!





Tues July 14 7:30 PM

vacation is going great, however I have way too much time down, so I get to think too much. Ma&a are up visiting Eunice and her boyfriend person Denny. (Sidenote: It's so hard not to say Eunice and Gary still.. I mean it's been like.. 4? years since he died... anyway...)

So it's just me, alone, snacking on cappuccino jelly beans, and watching chick flicks. And I realize, that I'm lonely. I mean, I like to be alone, I don't socialize well and if I don't get time away from people often, it drives me crazy and I get some sorta super-bitchy, but I don't like being lonely. I'm talking to people that arn't here! I want someone I can talk with, someone I can connect to. My family is great, but just not that person, ya know? I used to have close friends, but not anymore, I don't have anyone anymore. Yeah, someone might remind me I have a boyfriend, but he's in Canada, Ontario Canada, and I'm in WA state, USA. It's not exactly the most normal or easy relationship. I love him so much, and we have wonderful plans together, and I'm absolutely estatic for that. But it's more than a year away. I wonder how sane I'll be by then? I don't get to even speak with my guy except for on MSN maybe once every couple weeks, and lately only for a few minutes at a time. I understand he's busy, and that life is hectic and he has a lot to do, life does get that way, and I understand, and I don't blame him. But it doesn't stop me from being lonely. My closest friends, are on World of Warcraft. It's lame! I need real friends! Honest-to-God, I can walk out my door pick up my phone and we'll hang out, any time any place, they're close enough to call my family their family, ya know?
Maybe I'm just being whiney or bitchy.. right now I don't give a damn. If ya don't like it.. no one forced you to read my journal.

Hey! Barkeep, gimme a double o'er here!

I need an escape! This vacation is supposed to be an escape, but I need a vacation from my vacation! Thank God we go home tomorrow! this is insane!

do I sound like a whiny emo all "my life sucks! whaaaa!"? I hope not, I just need to vent somewhere were I'm not interrupted and I can't see people's faces yeah, I'm lame.


July 15, 9:48 PM

may not get to go to RainFurrest, that update will come later.

Also, everyone check out its me. not done yet.

also, periods suck.